My Life My Way: cribs and rants

I am no Rajamouli :-P

At 10.45, on a chilly winter night waiting for a train,which is supposed to arrive not before an hour, not a pretty gal in sight, I tend to keep up the promise, of putting up this post. Actually there is one, sitting to the far right of me, with a beautiful dimple on her cheek and a stoll stylishly draped around her neck, there seems nothing remotely interesting ( No the problem is I would have continued to gaze at her, had her boyfriend not been around! Or maybe he is not! Neva mind, I'm fine with stealing an occassional glance at her :P ) Few minutes have been passed since my last sentence.I was lost in thoughts. (Hmm, ya your right I was staring at her) Now before she catches me staring at her,I better move away. And gals, please don't get started like all guys are the same. Was admiring the beauty of nature thats it ;) :D
Folks by now you should have figured out that I'm on a roll and this might require some serious time and concentration on your part to finish reading.Better you grab a cup of coffee, or tea (anything else you prefer, I dont really have a prob) so that you can sip it, savour the moment, recline back and enjoy the reading!
What do u find at the start of any book?! Acknowledgements!?? Maybe I think I should thank all my readers, who appear to be enjoying my posts and keep telling I should start writing more often than not.I really have no clue if I was half good as they think.I even heard that there was an article in Deccan Herald( a popular daily in Bangalore) quoting my blog as of the top 100 most entertaining ones.( Damn, I should be more convincing about my boast,next time atleast!! you have figured out the heights of exaggeration!)Anyways, I am thankful to God.I now seem to have earned some set of readers who keep asking me when my next post is due :) ;). This isn't a lie,I dont lie always!!
Hey wait a moment...lady luck
seems to have been shining bright on me*pinches myself in disbelief*!Remember the girl with dimple I was talking at the start, she passed by my me and is now sitting right next to me!! Oh no she enquires if it is S2 couch(No it is not :( )! Damn she seems to have mistaken and shes leaving.Oh NOOOO! Mr.Fate I can never forget your timely interventions.You are insane.You switch sides so soon!! No point blaming..its always been the case with me.Lets move on!
My hands are getting numb.I'm not really able to type.Its freaking cold out here.Anyways,for those looking for something actually to read here it comes.If you have managed to read through the lengthy prologue,I must say you are quite stubborn ;).You dont give up easily. Do you?! Its almost been an year since I've attended an interview and rejected. That was one of the most depressing phases of my life. All thanks to someone,I came out of it strong. It was a just a week after that I managed to clear the Satyam and get placed. Dec 15th 2010. The day I have seen a wide smile on my Dads face. The happiness in his face was so obvious. Probably I couldn't have asked for a better moment. After all the years of struggle,I felt like God has answered my years and years of long prayers.Had it been a typical Bollywood movie you are close to finding the end titles. But dude its life!! And I heard somewhere that Life starts where your comfort zone ends. Boy trust me who ever have told it, seems to have lived life to the fullest and hes damn right in saying that!
6 months in the job life and I am going through troubles I never heard off and problems I never imagined that they would exist. I would have laughed off at ones face when someone tells me that he is getting frustrated with no work to do whole day and he is thinking of quitting the job in search of job satisfaction even for a lesser pay. Trust me exactly an year back I would done anything, mind you anything to swap roles with that guy. Not anymore. One must be right in saying money can give you comforts and luxurious life, but then they seem to have forgotten money alone wont give you happiness, theres a bit more than that.
And talking about the work, sometimes I wonder, for all the hardwork I've done, for all the efforts I've put, I'm letting some unknown people out there who I doubt if are half as smart as me to
decide my future.I have no control over the domain I get, the project I'm mapped to nor the kind of people I've to work with. Its all left to Mr.Fate again. I hope things get better soon and I wish I can actual do some work which lets me apply my brain, use my little intelligence I have and feel satisfied :)Mr.Fate waiting for you to be back on my side!!
Aah thats been a long one.I better go and catch some sleep. If I dont and wake up late in the day, I might have to find myself around in some parts of Madhya Pradesh. I dont want to waste my weekend in search of train back to B'lore ;). Chow!!
PS: If you are wondering what has the title got anything to do with the post, its after a director from Telugu industry who haven't had a flop in ten year odd career f his and exceeded audience expctations always!! I'm jus not him! Sorry if this post was any let down

12:08 AM
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Nonsensical

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2:31 PM
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Good bad and the worst

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How bad is too bad to be called bad?! Before you prepare yourself to answer this question,are you sure what bad is??If you try to be cheeky the answer would be very simple,whatever isn't good can be called bad.Is that really so? If that is so,life would've been far more simpler and there being just two set of people good and bad.But it never is and I don't think it'l ever be.

Give me a few moments,I'l try to drive you at my point.The first thing I would like to bring to your notice is,there aren't any absolutes.Every person has his own interpretation,justification and perspective.What appears right to me,may be wrong according to someone.I don't booze,fag or dope.Just because I don't do them do I've the right to call it wrong??!! I was told all through my childhood that they're all bad.With the whole world marching towards modernization,the set of rules we imposed on ourselves eased off and what is supposedly called bad a few decades back isnt bad anymore.

The irony is that, a few decades back, it was a cakewalk to differentiate between good and bad in movies at least.The lead role used to imbibe all the qualities that'l let you call good.The bad guy is the one who fags,boozes and is after girls all the way.But with changing times,everything changed.Its quite difficult to set apart who is hero and who is villian in present days movies,unless ofcourse if you are sure of whom to project as a hero.Its like aaj ki zaamane sab kuch chaalta hain,as long as your immediate neighbor is fine with it.

I kept asking this question many times before and I couldn't answer myself.So whose is bad now.I know its very difficult to be good.You need to endure lot of pain to be good.No matter how good you be just one wrong deed and you are gone,so does all the good you did.Being tagged as good is hard and to keep up with is the hardest of all.Whatever be the reason, I still can't digest the fact that there isn't a bad thing at all.There aren't a bad persons around!! Is something wrong with my thoughts??Am I the only one who thinks bad is still bad,no matter what part of the world it is and what time we are in??!!

PS: Dnt form a misconception that I treat fag,booze, dope as the only things to symbolize bad.Its just that these are the most common things that are being overlooked

8:05 PM
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Setting limits

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Its 1'O clock in the midnight and I just had a heated argument with my friends.It started at something silly and ended up in silence,what could possibly called a worst way to end a discussion.The whole point of discussion boils down to one simple thing what is right way of dealing with people.

I was told that I'm very serious and I don't value others opinion and I keep saying its MY LIFE MY WAY.Ofcourse I agree they got me damn right.But its just that they overlooked something more important.I don't value opinions of other people whom I don't care about. I don't see a point in doing that.Its like this,every person has his own perspective of life and his own approach towards things. I can't expect someone else to react to a situation just the way I did nor I can call mine as best way to handle something just because it worked for me.One shouldn't forget one has so many people around you that once you start valuing someone else opinion for the namesake not to hurt them, you'll start losing point of leading your own life. At some stage in life, if you look back and see you can't find yourself not even a sliver of your image it.Because all the while you were living your life by someone else's terms!!!

People may call me a self-conceited and selfish and egoistic person.Then be it. It doesn't matter.I can't be the same with everyone around me.I maybe very soft with someone and doesn't show any anger towards someone,whom I like no matter what they do to me.I may get easily annoyed with someone because they don't mean anything to me.
I hope I'm not confusing.To put it in simple words I am one person with several different facets, who reacts in different fashions with different people.Mind you, all the while its just the same 'me' who is doing all these.So just because I'm harsh with someone,doesn't imply that I'm rude to everyone around me.

I do listen to people who advice me.I can understand that people advice because they care for me.But it can't be like I can go on following everyone's advice at once for the same thing by being myself.So no matter what my friends says or people who call my friends, no disrespect intended, I do like them what they are,but can't let myself lead a life the way they want me to.If I ever feel they are right I see no point in agreeing with them.But as long as I don't feel so I cant help it.

After all its My life and I lead it MY WAY!!!